What's different

Lots of changes over the last couple of weeks.  Here's a list of things that I notice are different:

1.  I can start my day by turning on the bedroom light and not worry about waking someone up or stepping on a dog (or 2).  I like the light part, I miss the dog part.

2.  I can get up in the middle of the night and get a drink of water and not have a dog trailing behind me hoping for a "cookie" or having to wait for said dog to her business so i can go back to bed.  I miss the dog part.  I'd give anything to have Lucy get up with me and head outside, hear her bark at nothing (because that's what she does.  We used to joke when we'd hear her barking that it must be windy out lol cause she'd bark at the wind...if she wasn't hiding under the table, she hates the wind.)

3.  I don't have any dogs.  I miss them terribly. I haven't seen them since Don moved out.  He took them (and his clothes) when I was gone and I came home to an empty house.  I miss their companionship.  There's some special about our pets don't you think? Yes, they drive us crazy at times and are totally dependent on us but geez the return investment is more than I can put into words.  I miss Katie's nudge in the morning telling me that it's time to get up...before the alarm....almost every day...no matter what.  I miss pulling in the driveway and seeing them in the backyard and coming into the house and having Lucy "dance" to greet me and Katie singing me a song. Katie sings, she really does and she says "I love you" too.  But not to me.  Not anymore and this makes my heart hurt.

4.  I have lots of closet and drawer space.  I can actually open a drawer and not have to force it open or closed again.  I can see all my shoes instead of having to move them off the ones I want each pair is easily grabbed.  This makes me happy.

5.  All my socks match.  Sure hope that doesn't last long because it's almost un-American you know?  This makes me concerned...I mean really, how can that be?

6. I haven't gone grocery shopping in about 3 weeks, I had to break down and by a loaf of bread today because when i was making me a sandwich for lunch I discovered the bread I had was moldy.  That made me gag.

7.  I don't have to cook dinner.  This part was cool at first but after 2 weeks I'm starting to get hungry. 

8.  I've only had to do 2 loads of laundry in 2 weeks...prior to his departure I was doing 2-3 loads a week.

9.  My favorite cup is always clean...because I wash dishes before i go to bed.  I'm starting to think I could get away with giving all the dishes away except for a saute pan, a sauce pan, my solid and slotted black spoons, a spatula, a knife/fork/spoon, 1 plate, 1 bowl, 1 glass and my coffee cup.  Seriously.  That's all I've dirted up in 2 weeks. 

10.  There's toilet paper in both bathrooms and no pee on seat, floor, or anywhere else.  I don't get that, seriously, you have a hole to aim it out of, you have a big toilet bowl to aim it into, what the hell do men DO in the bathroom???  I just don't get it.  This makes me happy.

11.  I cut the services from Dish Network down to the bare minimum and am kind of thinking of just canceling it all together, I rarely watch TV and could totally do without. It is kind of nice to have some background noise though because there's been a few times that the silence has been deafening.  This makes me more determined.  Determined to focus on me that is.

12.  The garbage output has decreased tremendously. Last night I emptied boxes just so i could fill the bag and take the garbage out. Ok, not really.

13.  I've discovered that I kind of lke yardwork.  I mowed the front lawn tonight and it felt so good to do it and to sit on the porch when I was done mowing and cleaning up and I like the feeling of accomplishment I got from it. However, if any of my adoring fans would like to volunteer to come mow for me, please do not let this self-satisfaction I'm bragging about deter you...lol.

14.  I am living alone. Completely alone.  and I'm pretty sure I like it.  A lot.

15.  My money is my own.  Nuff said.

16.  I can take up the whole bed and I have covers in the morning when I wake up. Nobody is stealing my pillow, nobody is snoring and if I do? I won't tell anyone or wake anyone up. 

17.  I can talk on the phone, with hockey on, and not piss anyone off or have to go in the other room because i'm on the phone.  Ok, I lied...hockey has NOT been on.  lol

18.  I can come and go when I please.  He used to get pissy if I went anywhere after or wasn't home before about 8pm, I went for a drive tonight and didn't get home until after 9pm...oooohh the shame.

19.  I can say things to myself that I couldn't say before. May have to blog about that sometime, it's too deep for a list.

20.  I don't have to answer to anyone but me (and my boss for only for a limited time each day).

Am I lonely? Maybe a little bit but I'm leaning toward it not so much being lonely as it is kind of bored. 

Am I sad.  Only about missing my dogs.

Am I ok?  all signs are pointing to yes.